To Love Another Person is to See the Face of God

     Okay, can I get vulnerable for a moment? Well ready or not, here it comes. I miss him. A lot. Sometimes to the point of tears. Sometimes to the point of questioning God. Why are we so far apart? Why would you try to hurt me right after my heart has been healed? Why can't we have a normal love? One where I see him everyday so he can hold me when my heart is breaking or just see me smiling. I stare into the fog most mornings, feeling alone and despondent. I am a strong person, or at least I try to be, and seldom will you see me break, seldom will you see the tears fall. But sometimes they do. The scary thing is that it's only been two weeks. We have four, long, hard years ahead of us. Years that I know we can overcome, but it is going to be a struggle and an arduous fight. Nonetheless, it is a fight I am willing to engage in.
 
     Now to you, to the one I love, you are worth this waiting. You are worth this pain and heartache, because on the better days, the days when I am filled with unquenchable hope, all I see is your smile, that gleam in your eyes, the way you look at me- and all I hear is your laughter, your teasing words, your voice... Some things in this life were meant to be. I believe that you and I are one of those things. We have both made mistakes, we have both wounded and been wounded. I will not pretend that this future we have ahead of us is going to be easy. It is going to be tumultuous, difficult, and at times it may seem hopeless... but I vow to you now, to never give up, to never walk away, to never search for the easy way out. We must fight for one another, and for this rare love that few people ever truly possess. This world we live in is no fairy-tale. It is a cruel slab of fate ruled by a darkness that seeks to ruin all things pure and lovely. We must be willing to engage the darkness by staying true. True to one another and true to love. Not just the love that we share, but the love that must be shown to the rest of this ailing world. I can not wait to travel the world with you, to see the sights of exotic places, to taste of the freedom that only travel can buy, but most of all, I can not wait to love other people with you. To touch the hearts of the hurting and broken- the ones everyone else in this world has given up on, and we will only be able to do that because we never gave up on each other. This love is bigger than us, it is bigger than the feelings I get thinking about you, bigger than the way I feel when we touch, when we kiss... This is about reflecting the love that God has for every creature of His creation. We have been tasked with representing Him- no simple undertaking- and in order to do that, we must start now. I am committed to you because I love you, and more importantly because I love God.

     So. This pain, this heartache, and these next four years- hard as they will be- pale in comparison to the eternity of God's love. I love you.

“To love another person is to see the face of God.”  ― Victor Hugo