Friday, May 3, 2013

Where are you finding your identity?

If you had asked me a month ago where I find my identity, my answer would have been terribly different than it is now. A month ago I thought I was terribly happy, wanting for nothing and ready to take on the future. Boy was I mistaken! Yesterday I was interviewing my supervisor at World Concern for my internship, and she said something that really stuck with me. She said, "You'll never have your life figured out. It will never be what you expected it to be." Those are words that have the ability to strike panic, especially to a 21 year-old about to be graduate. Strangely though, I felt more peace than anything. Peace and comfort. So after stewing over this concept for awhile, I asked myself this question this morning: where do you find your identity? In my life I've known people who found their identity in a lot of different things. Some people place their identity in their job or career. When this happens, that person's mood and joy comes and goes with their accomplishments or advances in their work life. So say they are unable to finish a project or something goes wrong on the job...these people who are tied to their jobs see themselves as failures based on their performance. Still others base who they are on relationships. When a person does this, they are setting themselves up for failure, because you need to be confident in who you are as a person before you enter a relationship. Why? Because if not, you run the risk of getting swept up in the identity of the other person and you base so much of who you are on them and on their choices. And still others find their identity in tradition. So to answer my own question... My identity can only be found in the one who gave it to me in the first place. And so that is where I search for it. Lately my prayer has been for God to reveal who I am to Him. What does He see in me? Beauty, strength, a strong will, compassion... He whispers these things to me like a soft wind and it is then that I become aware of his deep, deep love for me. It can't be quenched or overcome like human love. This love, it is divine and it is everlasting. There is nothing we can do to make God stop loving us, because there is nothing we did to make Him start loving us. It is simply a love without end. I have so much more to learn about who I am, because as I've said before, there is never a time in your life when you suddenly know everything there is to know about yourself; however, I am content in knowing that God will reveal all of that in His timing.

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